My Beautiful Prison
I recently over the past 8 months found myself in a state of depression.
During that time I was weak and whether or not it showed on cam, I was emotionally unstable.
I found myself stuck in my own head and did not know how to break myself free.
I had been on birth control pills for many years to help control my migraines. One day I just said fuck it and stopped taking them because they stopped helping.
What I did not know was that I was about to be on an emotional rollercoaster from hell.
I found myself looking for what I thought I was missing, and thus began an emotional struggle within myself that I should have never allowed to even exist.
In letting my guard down I found myself being told over and over that I needed to stop allowing myself to be controlled and manipulated.
When in fact, I am now able to see that the person telling me all of this was the one who was trying to manipulate and control me.
In being a prisoner of my own mind some took advantage of that while another tried to be it's warden.
I am however happy to say that over this past week I have found myself free of those chains, focused, clear minded, and ready to get back to what I thought I needed to run from.
Thank you guys for always being there and sticking by me through all of this madness.
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